Post election fears

I found myself greatly saddened by the great amount of grief and anger I saw when I opened my Facebook feed this morning. The lack of faith in the Lord is huge.

I am also greatly saddened by the gloating of fellow Christians. I asked myself, is this what Christ would have wanted? I was answered with a resounding no, only followed by a even deeper feeling of sadness. I weep as I type this, my heart truly hurts.

This last week I have been filled with a hunger for the Word that I can never remember having, I have spent hours this week reading, listing to spiritual leaders and praying. I have be heard, I have been answered. Thankfully this time without a big freaking billboard. My Lord has spoke softly this time, I must have softened, thank goodness.

My greatest fear is that we aren't ready, that my storehouse isn't stocked well enough, that our hearts aren't full enough, that my self and my children don't know the Word well enough.

I fear the hate is see directed towards Christians. I see friends use hateful language towards Christians,  I see a huge lumping of beliefs, and people who do not speak or act as a Christian being lumped in to the same category as myself. I fear that the fears many people have will happen. I fear that we will be seeing some very hard times to come as a country. I also fear that Christians will be blamed for this, and will feel great prosecution. I fear that the anti Christ will use this platform to take hold. Over all a fear that we are seeing the end times and I fear that I'm not ready.

Do I Deserve?

Deserve is such a strong word.  By definition deserve is to do something or have or show qualities worthy of reward or punishment.

So why are we so deserving of things, I see lots of "I deserve to be happy, satisfied, fulfilled, to have this expensive car, ect." But do we really deserve those things and what does that type of thought processes do to our overall happiness? This type of thought creates resentment and resentment only festers.

I was listening to a well know Christian radio station, and an ad for the station came on and it stated that "You deserve to be happy at work".  Okay so its nice to be happy at work, but do you really deserve to be happy? Have you earned it? If you have would your co-worker who is of other beliefs deserve to have to listen to something they find offensive. How is this being Christ like, how is this treating our neighbor with love and being a beacon of light in the dark.

Did Christ deserve to be crucified? Did he complain about how he deserved to be treated better than his disciples. No he didn't, He was humble.

What this comes down to is we as a nation are worshipers of self, full of pride and self worth. Boastful and proud, trampling all others in our path to self fulfillment.

This is not living in the image of Christ.

I am not deserving of my husband, family, home or the salvation Jesus gave to me in his death on the cross. I am blessed to have these things, but not deserving.